5th august

wait? you mean blogger.com updated their settings? why is my new post thingy so different from the old one. is it just me or is the old one better than this one? i think this one is too wide and spaced out. yucks!
anyways, i just wanted to say that FINALLY the melissa-hui xuan issue is solved! phew. that is a load off my mind, the other one that is still dangling there is block test and umm another issue. GRRRRRRR i have so many issues in my life.
the big day is next wednesday 5th august the same day as Geog and math and LA blocks right? i really don't understand geog. lucily i managed to convince the teacher who has been teaching me since like FROEVER to teach me agriculture. haha she is like a dancer and she is like in her 50s but still really really fashionable. she looks like she is only 40 sum. love you auntie leanne!!!! even though she kinda used to scold us like shit in P. school

another problem is of course a problem in school. like, i mean i just realise that the only other person who i can tell my probs to other than HX and yen fei is actually Kylee. I want to tell melissa but she already has her own problems to deal with how can i tell her? i mean i do tell her but the not so serious ones! i can't possibly tell her other things right like the one about Nat? if not she will get upset but anyways she found out today. oh mel if you read this, don't dump nat because of what other think if you think you have fun when you are with her then just go recess with her don't care about what others think of your relationship with her cos i know how it feels like to be dumped and even though i don't favour nathania alot i don't want her to go through that kinda situation.

gym gym i just really wanna quit!!!! mavis you are such a.... nevamind, you just make such a great captain. and shu xin i mean i don't need you to quit with me it is always your own choice i am just saying that i really want to and that my mum wants me to but if you are fine in that cca then remain there. for me i just don't think i can carry on with this lifestlye. small waist bigger thighs! so damn annoying.

i am wearing an Element T-shirt now. i was planning to walk opposite to jelita to buy something but then my mum just said that she wasn't going out for dinner. brrrr. my ahyi is coming over, i lve my Yi. can go play her DS during my break later. I have not mugged in a while now, still not very used to it. just finished math, gotta do Geog later after dinner,even though i don't get anything. i hope i don't fail my geog.

aiya nathania let me have 1/5 of your knowedge in geog and that is good enough for me. oh boy oh boy. i hope after that lesson tomorrow i might get a little more than nothing now

i have faith in you auntie leanne!!!! you have made me an A* student make me an A1 for geog paper please????

ok bye i have to go study now. oh man jusst thinking of WRC is making my feel like barfing. someody help!!!!!

HAPPY vs. SAD

life is filled with ups and downs at first i was thinking of posting something I thought of posting during tuition just now but then I changed my mind a few minutes ago. At first i wanted to talk about berries and how sour strawberries were and i nearly lost my liking for raspberries but then 3 calls changed my mind. 

talking about berries could have been meaningless except to someone who is as random as me.youknowwhoyouare.haha

love you and always will

even though i believe the situation will turn better

i don't know when

i am probably the person whom you think you feel the most comfortable talking to

i feel the same way too

you're not gouging things from me

you just need to speak

i understand

i do that too

talk

talk 

talk

it is normal to talk

being hated i understand

i don't want to be too

what people write

i don't bother

what people say

i don't wanna listen

what people do behind my back

i don't wana know

that is how our life should be

that is how our TEENAGE life should be

don't all teenagers have this DON'T CARE attitude

time for us to develop one

i also know someone has been writing things about me on her blog

i have eyes and ears everywhere

people tell me

people want me to know

i can't see it but i will know

i act as if i am blind

i act as if i am dumb

but what i really know 

you will be scared

so my darling my darling i am telling you

you are not alone

i am here to stay with you 

people might have said somethings and i might have overheard

but there is no need for you to know as long as i am here

don't be afraid i will be that glimpse of light in the dark

i will be that ink to your pen

i will be that buddy you call upon at night

and i will be that friend you like:)

clean those tears my dear

it is not time to weep

you can come with me as we queue together for wan ton mee(haha)

i know this might sound mushy but it is no lesbiany 

it is just a poem(i think) for a friend in need

you were never a friend you gave the word friend an additional meaning 

you gave it value. 

i have never felt a friendship oh-so strong 

except with you and Joyce( and someone else-can't say who). 

not even with someone who i knew for just too long

thank you to my 2 sworns from NY and that one jie who might soon be from NY too, Gayle Chance.

Thank you to the 3 of you for giving friendship an extra value

but this goes out to you especially it isn't a burden and i wouldn't find fault in it i guess what i have written in this blogpost has explained to you what i really feel:)

i have this T-shirt that says DON'T WORRY, SWIM HAPPY" and there were cute little rubber-duckies swimming in this small inflatable pool haha:)

I am happy today! Actually I am everyday but I am especially happy today. Firstly it is the PSL new thing. like seriously, never knew that she would have me in mind. ME? hope the interview wouldn't be that hard. darn. anyways, gotta be positive right? 

Secondly, because I found something that would cure all my agonies and pains. haha. not that melodramatic just put it that I FOUND KEY TO FREEDOM. alot of people have this freedom but I need the key, that key. just need my mom to agree me buying it from the internet. I mean we can just use paypal there wouldn't be a diff much better than using Visa or A-mex. you would  have to pay by credit  card then. PayPal they will just send the bill to your house I think? idk. but wait then how are you going to pay back? haha.

going out for dinner tonight. gotta celebrate sanjay's victory. YAYE so damn happy for you sanjay. yeah right. WTH? it is like wasting my time when I can be home on my mac (wink face) and tweeting and reading tweets.

stupid. no i am actually kinda happy for him but i don't know what to wear. Anways it will only be in the club's coffee house so i don't really have to dress that nice. should i go in shorts? haha. my dad would totes kill me. anyways, 2 other families ae joining in so can't possibly dress like that. my dad Mr Santa Claus go and treat them to dinner if Sanjay wins the golf game. 

those 2 boys are Sanjay's good friends so our dads kinda hang out while they train during golf practice and our families are kinda close i guess?

playlist: Dat New New (original)  

I should totally start trying out Garage Band and then make a tune. super physed that Shu Xin said my eyes are like Mac's:) love you jie. ahhhh! C'mon. and then SOMEBODY had to be all like "ok lah yeah lah yeah lah" don't be such a spoilsport. jkjk. but seriously, don't like it when you do that. haha. 

I was photoboothing just now. oh Dat New New just ended. gonna listen to M.I.A's Paper Planes. ok bye.

Quote of the day" cos all I wanna do is (6 gun shots cashier sound) take your money" haha

w00ts! I am pretty high today! yayes!(?) there was this person who asked me in school yesterday why i am always so high. haha. what? ok neva mind. guess where i went yesterday? oh yeah. Orchard central. yeah i know, pretty cool pretty cool. but it is like so totally new that there was this whole level where no stalld were open at all. Guess that place is kinda more for teens right? so many teenagers yesterday. omg know what I saw? I saw this damn long queue. those idiots were queing for the new Iphone3GS. such douchebags. can't you guys just pre-order or something like i mean firstly you get 1st priority and 2ndly, you don't have to queue overnight. don't you think those people are such dickheads? 

dang it. Sanjay is going to get his Iphone nex week and I have to wait till like  14th august till my contract is over. psst! but nvm, the 1st batch is usually the weakest batch cos the phones will always hang. everything has its downsides right? 

why do you think 13-15 year old girls go out dressing up like their fave korean actresses who are most prob 25 years and older?  it is like girls my age or even up to 16 years old trying to dress like Britney spears or Lindsay Lohan. whores. 

enough on me ranting. ohoh. the 7/8/9 gathering in NYC has started already. wish i could be there. ohboy. so depressed. oh the cool people are going like: davedays,micheal buckley, iamchrisc, kevjumba, happyslip, smosh, vprincess, mitchell davis(epic),shanedawson.

would kill to meet them especially iamchrisc, davedays and kevjumba. sadly, mac couldn't be there. don't know for what reason guess cos chaz is over at his place. 

ok, gotta go help sameer on the butt spray thing to clean his butt. he just took a shit:) haha

quote of the day"jie i finish you can come help clean me now"

michael jackson's memorial

hey michael jackson. i know you are guarding over us through the angel eyes of yours and you are definitely having a hell of a party with god and all wandering souls in heaven. i promise you that i will carry a part of you in whatever. in my ipod,doing charitable deeds. this will be our last goodbye

being sick is really sick

hey! like i don't know how i am actually able to be so enegetic, but hey come on this is just typing.

So, i have extremely severe aching head ache(thats like repetition) and runny nose which so happens to be blocked nose now plus umm a little bit of cough. My eyes are burning for no reason why and I am not going to school tomorrow.

Poor Hui xuan has no one to speak to, i pity you! nope! just kidding but i think i will be back by the following day or maybe i won't go to school for 2 days, idk. So yeah, i guess someone has to help me collect my homework maybe? I think idealy Yuet Ching cos like she lives closest to me, I guess? But yet I don't know if it will be troubling her or anything like that.

okays, lets talk about school! WHY IN THE WORLD HAS RACHEL WU DECIDED TO JOIN GYM? oh i know(raises hands) cos she thinks she cannot lose out to her friends and all that bull crap. (i just made a word up) oh boy, don't worry her arms are like already bigger than mine now so, I guess once she starts developing muscles, she will definitely start to get thigh muscles, calf muscles, arm muscles, and then her muscle mass will increase which will cause her weight to increas by 3x the norm. DOUCHE. 

If I didin't remember wrongly, i think i was skinnier than her before I joined gym. DOUHCE-gym and gym seniors and rachel wu. 

GEEZ! Really trying to think of a way to quit gym man! I really really want to !

I wanna go watch Michael Jackson's memorial but I can only watch in my mom's room since she took out the card from our tv box in the study. darn.

ohman, should i go watch it or not? but it think it is most likely over by now. POOF! 

let's talk about other things like oh great story:

so i was watching strangers 2 and like i couldn't get the story  at first and i had to watch it like twice before i actually undertood. oh man, chaz is weird and he seems to be a guy who gets easily cracked up. ohboy, CHAZ! so like the mask was cute, wondering what it was actually made of, curtains? idk.

oh man oh man, bloppers were so so funny!!!! DANG IT! but like chaz kept cracking up and it was kinda pissing him off. poor thing. and and so random... let's call Kathy. Kathy? haha that was really funny.

ok byes there is no quote for the day

maybe"juicy sweatpants and hoodies are real comfy!" rhymes eh!

ok. bye. 

being sick is really sick

harsh words might get the mesage across but at the same time gets you feeling guilty.

UH OH 

water is good for you, clears toxic in your body:) that's why i am drinking it now.

guess what? has anyone ever had chicken nuggets with mashed potato? i know right. like seriously? weird. but i went with my parents to this restaurant some french place i think? yeah and like i don't eat steak and all and the only kids thingy they had was chicken nuggets with fries and a small portion of the adults vegetarian spaghetti but i hate my greens! so i settled for fries with nuggets but i changed my fries to mashed potatoes. yummy!

like it was so so weird. but i enjoyed it accompanied with tomato juice. i was really full after the tomato juice and all but i decided to get ben and jerry's ice cream since it was just around the corner. sweet cookies and cream that was one funny incident with my dad being mr einstein. alright let's not get into that. 

man, you you you make my life swirl. is that the only topic we converse about? is that the only thing that bonds us? cos if it is,  i would rather not talk about it and just go into normal topics. 

don't know if you have ever felt that way, i mean i love you (as a friend) and all but things like these just get to me sometimes.not too sure if she only comes to me cos she wants to get info out from me but love her anyways:)

"swore that i'd..." those were lyrics to a new song.want it? haha can't get it yet cos it ain't on itunes and that means it wouldn't be playing on radios too! suck it!3

copycat or (un)coolie?

hey. how was your day? mine was enjoyable:) pretty fun.

the wriggle really made me laugh i mean are you trying to copy me to mix with me or do you think i am cooler than you that's why you want to learn my style? idk. but you act so weirdly like you laugh so loudly and like idk. you're funny. i mean what is up with the dance move oh and GOUCHE? wtf? what in the world? i thought you were the first person i told other than the people who read my blog, that douche,douchebag,dbag,douchenozzle and dou-che bag were copyrighted? and just beacause those were copyrighted you changed the D to a G? screw you. those were my words(kinda) and you just...

NVM, that just plainly goes to show that you have no originality and  no style. YOU ARE LOSER. do you say that just to piss me off or are you trying to copy me thinking that it will be cool cos no one else in school says douche(i think?). HELLO!! man, you piss me off. both the gouche and the dance move, i showed it to you not because i wanted you to copy me k? i showed it to you guys so that you could see. BTW, the dance is so not it like everyone can do that dance move,oh wait it isn't even called a DANCE move. you do that when your shoulders ache. you dick. and no offence but your taste in guys really suck. i mean that joshia person, seriously? like seriously? that guy? hot? haha not too sure about whether he is the nerdiest in class but he is so NOT on the hot-guy list in class. both of you are dicks. sad to say so when you give birth to your children,please name them

gouche

gouchebag

gbag

since you like to use it so much and 

since you don't read my blog it is good so that people who do read my blog will know all about your doings

i feel like you are trying to compare with me all the time and you are trying to match up but i do know that some stuff you said were false just that i said nothing about it to you

very well then, will still treat you normally. as a gouchebag:)

quote of the day"let's do the wriggle"

I wish to get closer to you

I wish I could

I wish 

however.

It's sad that you cannot see it

It's sad that you don't really know.

It's sad that I can't join you

It's sad that you don't really care(?)

I guess now due to H1N1 we will be sitting at the same table

but not for long

I guess after all this we will not have recess together

I guess this isn't very obvious to you.

We don't necessarily have to be close in class 

We don't necessarily have to eat together

We don't necessarily have to tell each other secrets

We don't necessarily have to do all the unnecessaries

We just have to be close at heart

We just have to share feelings with each other

We just have to tell our problems when there is no other suitable person

We just have to share our crushes and hates

We just have to share what we feel like

Seeing you being so close to them makes we wish i was there too

Seeing you tell them things makes me wish i am the one listening to what you have to say

Seeing you tell them your secrets makes me wish I was the one keeping those secrets for you

When you are down you tell me

When I am pissed I tell you

When you cannot tell anyone else you probs

you tell me

COS I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU!

alright that was just like the corniest and mushiest poem i ever wrote. OW! i just dropped my laptop charger on my toe. mutha f-er. oh gosh!!! i jist fell in love with Mac's laugh. It is so hilarious. Like really really funny. And talking about him, I had like this seriously bad dream about him last night which made me doubt my dream...

So, it was like we were kinda in the woods or something right. (and yes i am talking about my dream,if you didn't know about it already. no.whatever.it's alright) and then like he only invited Chaz,Kandyce and me. but kandyce totally did not look like kandyce in my dream...she looked like some woman who was 5 years older thant him or something. this shows that my brain is not very taleneted in the artistic area. haha. 

anyways, so it was only like the 4 of us and we were eating so happily and all. then, we started roasting marshmallows(why do i always talk about marsh?). after a while, he and Kandyce said that they would take a stroll and all. they started holding hands!!!! ARGHHHH! like, seriously?oh man my heart just sank cos i thought he invited me cos he liked me! and then, he actually walked away with Kandyce.

hais. but dreams are dreams. nightmares are nightmares. sometimes dreams come true if you are a good girl. and nightmares come true if you do something bad. but kandyce already has a boyfriend in real life, he has like real long hair that touches his shoulders and she loves him alot! the relationship thing between mac and her is just a joke and all. they were just being teased by friends. lol. but Kandyce is so so sweet and i wish both her and anthony the best in their relationship cos they look really cute tgether.

oh boy, i gotta go eat my cupcake my mum bought today for me. 

TTYL.

quote of the day"livelavalive" I NEED POT AND COCCAINE!!! kiddin. never do drugs young ones:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)::):):):):):):):):):):)):) mutated smileys;-)