I wish to get closer to you

I wish I could

I wish 

however.

It's sad that you cannot see it

It's sad that you don't really know.

It's sad that I can't join you

It's sad that you don't really care(?)

I guess now due to H1N1 we will be sitting at the same table

but not for long

I guess after all this we will not have recess together

I guess this isn't very obvious to you.

We don't necessarily have to be close in class 

We don't necessarily have to eat together

We don't necessarily have to tell each other secrets

We don't necessarily have to do all the unnecessaries

We just have to be close at heart

We just have to share feelings with each other

We just have to tell our problems when there is no other suitable person

We just have to share our crushes and hates

We just have to share what we feel like

Seeing you being so close to them makes we wish i was there too

Seeing you tell them things makes me wish i am the one listening to what you have to say

Seeing you tell them your secrets makes me wish I was the one keeping those secrets for you

When you are down you tell me

When I am pissed I tell you

When you cannot tell anyone else you probs

you tell me

COS I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU!

alright that was just like the corniest and mushiest poem i ever wrote. OW! i just dropped my laptop charger on my toe. mutha f-er. oh gosh!!! i jist fell in love with Mac's laugh. It is so hilarious. Like really really funny. And talking about him, I had like this seriously bad dream about him last night which made me doubt my dream...

So, it was like we were kinda in the woods or something right. (and yes i am talking about my dream,if you didn't know about it already. no.whatever.it's alright) and then like he only invited Chaz,Kandyce and me. but kandyce totally did not look like kandyce in my dream...she looked like some woman who was 5 years older thant him or something. this shows that my brain is not very taleneted in the artistic area. haha. 

anyways, so it was only like the 4 of us and we were eating so happily and all. then, we started roasting marshmallows(why do i always talk about marsh?). after a while, he and Kandyce said that they would take a stroll and all. they started holding hands!!!! ARGHHHH! like, seriously?oh man my heart just sank cos i thought he invited me cos he liked me! and then, he actually walked away with Kandyce.

hais. but dreams are dreams. nightmares are nightmares. sometimes dreams come true if you are a good girl. and nightmares come true if you do something bad. but kandyce already has a boyfriend in real life, he has like real long hair that touches his shoulders and she loves him alot! the relationship thing between mac and her is just a joke and all. they were just being teased by friends. lol. but Kandyce is so so sweet and i wish both her and anthony the best in their relationship cos they look really cute tgether.

oh boy, i gotta go eat my cupcake my mum bought today for me. 

TTYL.

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